Blessings...

I seem to get sentimental as I sit in the Oyens PO (or it's just when I'm able to let my mind be free...) Either way - I type out another blog...

Blessings is the title for many reasons...

Last night was the season finale to ER. Yes, I'm starting my blog talking about a TV show. Why? Because after 13 years I truly feel like it was a part of me. Those people in the black box were friends of mine that I connected with. Though it was merely a one sided friendship it was one that kept me looking forward to new weeks. It messed with my emotions and opened my eyes to larger problems/situations than those in my little bubble. It physically saddened me to watch it end last night yet I know with the end of it there is something new in store for me. I've become a one TV show woman - I merely watch Grey's now and spend the rest of the time busying myself with "real friends" or motherly duties, or continued education. Much more productive. :)

Blessings....

I met a 3 month old girl yesterday that was born without a brain. God has sown her eyelids shut as she was born without eyeballs and she is deaf. Miracles.... Blessings.... I'm not sure why she was born like that. Her parents first child. I'm not sure why she is still alive. Deaf. Blind. Fragile. And yet a total blessing. I'm not sure why I got to meet her? Why did God affect my life with her and why do I sob at the thought of her? Why does my heartbreak with the vision of her beautiful features? Ugh. Emotions. They pull you from your routine and throw you a curve ball. Ripping you from your comfort zone and putting you out there. Vulnerable.
Well, a beautiful girl she is. A blessing for all who meet her. In the 10 minutes I saw her I realized two things... #1: My life may be hard at times but it could always be worse. #2: My children may drive me crazy but at least they are able to drive me... How crushed would I be to never see their beautiful eyes.
Well, God knows what He's doing so we'll just be thankful for the opportunities to enjoy the blessings He gives us.

Blessings...
Little Jabrel. The girl who literally makes me want to scream in frustration and throw my own temper tantrums. She talks so much I pray for silence. She is persistant. Annoying. Tedious. And adorable.
As I run around the house getting things done she comes into the kitchen...
First thought - great. Her she comes to bother me...
Holding up her cell phone she says "Mom? It's for you. It's Jesus. Wanna talk to Jesus, Mom?"
"Sure Jabrel. I'll talk to Jesus." I'm thinking - "thanks God for making me feel guilty. My first thought was that she'd bother me...."
I chat with God on her "cell phone" while she dances around the kitchen. I give the phone back to her only to watch her walk away with it propped between ear and shoulder (just as I do.)
"Yes, Jesus. That was Mommy. Yep. mmmhhmmmm. Ok - I be good for her cuz you watchin' me." And then she disappears out of eyesight for me. Still in her bubble - talkin' to Jesus.

Why don't I remember to use my cell phone to call Jesus? I call everyone else. I text. But I forget to call the One who can really help.

Blessings....
Always ready to jump out and throw you back a step. Put things in perspective. Re-align your wheels and set you spinning again.

Thank you for the opportunity to let me share my blessings.